Just updated my about me page & bucketlist page :D

1-30-2012

• woke up Incredibly sore from my workout at the studio yesterday.
• pulling into the parking lot at work; my soda exploded all over me & the inside of the car & I’m working my whole shift fucking sticky.
• tried to go to the diamond show, but it was a bust so me & my guy just got lunch instead and I drove him to class.
• came home and realized that my new set of keys don’t quite fit & was locked out -___- its just  one of those days i suppose
• first class (math) was good so far! I got the add code & the professor seems decent.
• secind class (history) pretty chill, goes by quick
• babe took me out to Sushi at Cha Cha Sushi! Definatly a new fav!
• now im cuddling in the blanket he gave me & about to write my history essay with the great baker on TV :3 

Good first day, nothing too special. Glad it went by hassle-free & it was much less chaotic than I anticipated. Planning on a chill night :)

Our Story [edited 1/30/12 9:49am]

This is going to be a work in progress, so bear with me ;)

This is Alex. My edits will be in bold and italicized. 

How we met: It all started in middle school. We took the same school bus every morning for two years. I actually didn’t realize this until he told me. We first met in a Sociology class during our first semester of senior year in high school. He sat behind me, and we were in a “group” together for the class. I think we were called like the elephants or rhinos or something stupid. We were both in relationships at the time, so unfortunately other than a little flirting we weren’t very close and didn’t really get to know each other. EDIT: Actually, I was not in a relationship at the time, but unfortunately, neither of us pursued anything. [damn, i wish i knew that before haha] But luckily we did exchange emails! :) Eventually, that’s how we started talking. I thought it was on AIM or Facebook or something. [actually, come to think of it, it was aim and facebook. I don’t remember how it started but i remember you commenting on my picture and my boyfriend at the time getting kinda mad LOL] I dropped out of the class after first semester, and we didn’t talk or see each other for the rest of the year, except for at the last dance of our senior year. I remember seeing his high ass and wanting to chill with him, but I think his girlfriend at the time was there and I didn’t want to get him in trouble. It’s too bad though. When we talk about high school now, we always bring up how much better it would have been if we were friends! Hell yeah. Everything would have been better. We would’ve had more fun, prom would have been amazing, and we would’ve been able to keep our friends (both of our ex’s didn’t let us hang out with them) but since were into the same kind of people and actually had a lot of the same friends; things would have been so easy! It really sucks, but I guess everything happens for a reason. Fuck highschool. LOL.

Dating: He messaged me over the summer after graduation with a “hey cutie” and from then we started talking occasionally on aim. A month or so into our freshmen year of college, we started texting instead. Looking back now, im not even sure what we talked about! But I guess when you “click” the way we do, things like that are easy. Some nights we would talk on the phone for hours and hours- which is funny because I’ve never been able to stand doing that with anyone else but him. This was something that was strange for me as well. I hate talking on the phone. Windy’s right though. Something just clicked between the two of us and we hit it off right from the start. I guess it was because we talked because we wanted to- instead of feeling obligated. Around September, he asked me out to go get coffee with him. I said yes, and he said “it’s a date”. Kind of tricked me into that one, haha. Hehehe This was the first time we talked and spent time together face to face. He picked me up him his mustang (which I thought was VERY sexy). I was so damn nervous though! Just sitting next to this cutie in his car was something so bad, because I had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend, but it just felt so good! It felt like we could finally be ourselves and someone would still we want to be around us and spend time with us. Our first date was at a Starbucks near our neighborhood. We drank near-black coffee and smoked probably half of his pack of Newports, and we made each other lauph, and smile, and it felt so GOOD. Plus he was so SEXY. asdfghj. haha. Needless to say; i really liked a guy who could smoke with me and talk to me like a friend, but be more than a friend. It was an instant friendship with us. For once in my life, I finally felt like the female; the girlfriend. He drove, he paid, he invited me out and he had an opinion and the balls to stand up to me. And at the same time, he was a complete gentleman. He opened doors for me, always drove me home, wanted to meet my dad, and played with my dog (big plus). This really became a thing for us, and we started going on dates like this weekly, and eventually a few times a week. And it wasn’t just coffee. After a while, we would go for drives and listen to music, go up and explore places with a “view” and stare out into the open, or he would sneek over to me house at night and we would talk and flirt. A lot of the friends that I have now have been my friends for quite some time now and they can all tell you that I do not like to go out. I especially do not like to go exploring. But there was something different when I was with Windy. Something inside of me kept pushing me to try these new things with her. Something drove me to do it, and I’m glad I did because I know that if I hadn’t, we would not be in the relationship that we are today. If it weren’t for those little dates, we would never have even been together. I am grateful everyday that I gave those things a try, because now I have the most wonderful girl in the world. It never got too intimate, though. But I did kiss him, once. It was on the cheek after our first date. He had just drove me home and I was telling him how much fun I had. Then he asked me for a hug, so I gave him one. Then he asked me for a kiss and I said “NO!” but then leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. He smiled SO big! haha. It was very cute. It was the best kiss of my life. But after that, we kept things pretty light and just had fun dating without getting serious or physical.

Sometime in October, something terrible happened to me. It became very apparent that I wasn’t safe in the arms of the guy I was dating at the time. I called a friend of mine and we went on a walk around evergreen hills by our college. My friend called Alex and told him what had happened. Alex was in court downtown, with a group of his classmates when my friend called. He ditched his group and was there in less than half an hour. That night was the first time he really started holding me and hugging me like more than a friend. He made me feel like everything was going to be okay. We talked (him, me, & my friend) and smoked and sat outside for a long time. I consider it when we started getting seriously curious about what it would be like if we were together. He asked me to let him kiss me that night, but I wouldn’t let him. As much as I wanted to. I think that night was the first time that I really felt like I was in love with Windy. I had already known that I really liked her, but this was when the love that I have for her started to form. When I found out what happened, all I could think about was getting to her and making her know that everything was going to be okay and that I would protect her from anything and everything. When I saw her after it was all said and done, and I saw how hurt and how vulnerable she was, all I could think to myself was that something like this was NEVER going to ever happen to her again. I knew from that moment on that I would give my life to protect Windy. I knew that I would do absolutely anything in order to make her feel safe. And I knew, from the moment that I saw her, that I was in love with her.

On Halloween night, I asked him to go out with me and my friends to the club, but he couldn’t. We kept texting anyway though, and for the first time he told me that if I was single, he would have asked me out already. Indeed.

Shortly after that night, he started waiting for me after work. He would come in sometimes 20 or 30 minutes early and just hang out inside of Jamba Juice and wait for me to get off. My co workers all knew who he was! One day, I was texting alex at work. I think it was about November or so. Anyway, he asked me to come over to his house. By this time I was starting to really have feelings for him but since I was still in a serious relationship I was feeling really guilty and torn. So I said that I didn’t have enough gas (looking back it probably wasn’t a great excuse because we live literally down the street a minute or two from each other). He was really persistent and decided to just come over to my work. When he got there, he offered to put some gas in my car and gave me his keys in exchange for mine. I drive a jeep and it has a 25 gallon tank in it, and it really was almost empty. He filled it. My coworkers told me that he was “investing”. I still think that’s funny. For whatever reason, Windy thought I was just going to put a little bit of gas in her car. To be perfectly honest though, I’m not really sure what I was thinking when I filled her tank. All I knew was that I wanted to see her after she got off of work. Maybe it was the lame excuse, and I had to make sure that that would never be an issue again. That day, I was thinking with my heart, not my wallet.

Well November went by quickly, and we started hanging out about every other day and texting daily from when we woke up until we fell back asleep. It was very clear that we wanted to be together. We had promised each other that we would end our relationships at the same time. He kept his end of the deal… but it took me a few months longer. In all honesty, I was scared to death. Alex wasn’t the kind of guy I dated before. And the fact that he broke up with his girlfriend right in front of me over a text message was sweet, but it made me wonder if he would just turn around and do the same to me. But he proved to me that the circumstances are completely different and I gave him a shot. I kept dating him, and when I felt comfortable I finally let go of my ex boyfriend around christmas. 

Our first kiss, was at a park that we call “Kevin’s Park”. ACTUALLY, our first kiss was NOT at “Kevin’s Park.” It was actually at Dove Hill park, by the elementary school. [LOL. Sorry honey. the night and time and place is kind of a uhm… blur… but i defiantly remember the kiss itself. It was on the grassy hill above the playground <3] We went out there to hang out and be alone one night, after getting dinner. We were drinking a big bottle of Smirnoff, and I was pretty tipsy. We ended up rolling around in the grass and playing around. It’s a bit blurry, but I remember him rolling on top of me, and we just looked into each others eyes for a second. Then he leaned down and gave me our first kiss. It was really cute and romantic and although its not very conventional, I would’t change it for the world.

Things got more exciting on winter break. We started partying more, started drinking more, I started going over to his place regularly, and hanging out with his friends. The best parts of it that I remember, were when we would drive up to communications hill or go to parks just me and him. It felt so good to be lose around him. We would just talk and kind of cuddle up. And that was something nether one of us had ever had before; a significant other we could be ourselves around. To this day, i think that is one of our relationships best qualities. Alex & I never faked anything when we were dating. We really put it all out there and didn’t hide flaws or try to be “good”. We were just us and we had fun. I felt like I was dating my best friend. The reason we were able to open up to each other so easily was because neither of us could before. But when we started to open up, everything poured out. The great thing was, though, was that we weren’t scared off because of it, and instead, it attracted us to each other more and more. We knew exactly what we were getting if we were to be together. The fact that Windy was willing to open up to me so much made it so easy for me to open up to her, and that just made me fall in love with her more and more.

And then things exploded. I’m not sure if I want to go into detail or not, so this will be edited later. Babe; feel free. I think some things are better left unsaid. But for now, long story short I really started to let go. I showed Alex a part of myself that I sometimes wish he never saw. The remarkable thing about it, was that he stayed with me anyway- and we wern’t even “together” yet, we were just dating. He had no obligation at all. We kept things very lose the entire time we dated. There were no rules, no plans, and no little “traditions”. And unfortunatly, this led to Alex witnessing me at my worst. I broke his heart, and I will always regret that. There is a rumor that I slept or messed around with someone, and no that is not what happened. I would never do that to him. Alex & I know what really happened so everyone else who wasn’t there can go fuck themselves; because they’re not worth of knowing the truth. Long story short; I didn’t know my limit & I fucked up. I cannot change it now as much as I wish I could, so let me just talk about what good came from it. Alex had told his friends those nights how much he cared about me and how I was different and worth all of the pain i put him through. His best friend Daniel told this to me a few months ago. That’s the part that shocked me the most. It was incredible enough that he kept dating me after what happened, but not only that; he continued to take care of me and take me home safely even when i was belligerent and impaired and had just hurt him, and on top of THAT, he told his friends that he really cared about me, too. This is amazing. Babe your fucking amazing, i love you so much. I have never in my entire life felt the unconditional love that he has shown me. No matter how much pain I was in at the time, it was no where near the amount of love that I felt for Windy. Yeah, the things that happened are things that I will never be able to forget, but as of now, I am at a point where I can forgive Windy for them, and everyone who was there that night. A lot of shitty things happened, but that doesn’t mean that I need to define Windy and my relationship as that, because it’s not. We have a wonderful relationship. Bad things are bound to happen. I have done more than my share of bad things in our relationship and I have hurt Windy in ways that I wish I never had, but there is no reason to feel as if those are the only things in the relationship. Those nights, I made sure every single night that Windy would get home to her bed safely. I drove her home, carried her to bed, and tucked her in. And when I knew she was safe, I left. I would always call her the next morning to see how she was doing. Several times, her parents actually caught me bringing her home, and blamed me for the condition she was in, but I just took it, because I know I was partially responsible for it, as I was the one who brought her to those parties. Yes, I did tell my friends that I cared about Windy. These guys are my best friends. I have known each and every one of them for the majority of my life, so I knew that if I was going to let anyone know, it would be these guys. I told them before I told Windy because I was so scared that she wasn’t ready for another relationship. She had told me, after she broke up with her (at the time) boyfriend that she needed a little time to be single, so I gave that to her. But I wasn’t really sure how much time she needed. I didn’t want to push it too much and scare her away, but I also didn’t want to not push it at all and have her feel like I was no longer interested. I was balancing this fine line, while at the same time, protecting her, and having a good time with her. It wasn’t easy, and the things that happened are bad, but despite all of it, I still wanted to be with her. I had decided before that I wanted to be with her, and I knew that I would do anything and stick by her no matter what. And I’m glad I did, because if I hadn’t, I fear that our relationship would never have been.

Relationship: On January 10th, 2010, Alex asked me to be his girlfriend. It made me so happy that we could finally say that we belonged to each other. Ever since, things have been amazing. We have gone through some pretty bad times, but it never stopped feeling good, and it always felt worth it. He’s the one, and I know it. He told me he was in love with me, first. It took me a little longer because I was afraid to let myself fall in love, but it was inevitable. <3 I know that Windy is the one for me. I have never felt the way I feel about her before. Because we were so close before we were together, our friends were already calling us boyfriend and girlfriend, but we could finally say that we were, in fact, together. I had loved Windy way before we were together, but it felt amazing to finally be able to tell her. 

Special Dates:

March 2010: We adopted “Lucky” our beautiful black Labrador/German Shepard mix I have yet to see the German Shepard in her. [except, of course, the gigantic little thing she’s become]

December 17, 2010: Alex gave me a beautiful diamond white gold promise ring. Below is the picture I took the night he gave it to me.

January 6, 2011: We got matching tattoos!

February of 2011: Alex added my name in my hand writing to his heart tattoo. Mine says Windy inside of it. I actually got it after screwing up really bad. It got so bad that I thought Windy didn’t feel as if I was really committed in the relationship anymore. This was kind of my way of showing her that she would be a part of my life, no matter what.

March of 2011: We moved in together at my family’s home where we share a single bedroom of our own. [this is when he officially moved in. Before this for a few months we spent the night together almost every night. Pic later]

November 12, 2011: I gave Alex a white gold custom promise ring 

To be continued… Btw babe if your reading this, feel free to edit or add things I miss. Just put them in bold or italic so i can read it :D 12/2/11

Never in my life did I ever think I would fine someone so wonderful, so amazing as Windy. I love you so much, baby. We’ve made it almost 2 years now, and even though that sounds like a long time, it’s not, compared to the years we will spend together from now on. I am completely in love with you, sweetheart. I always will be.

January of 2012, just days before our two year anniversary

alex gave me this beautiful new promise ring (below), in the midst of a fight, and made a wonderful new promise to go with it. It marks the start of a new chapter for us.

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#when he bites my bottom lip while we’re making love.

- Asdfgjkllhgfdhk ;DD

THINGS THAT MADE MY DAY;

• my dad made pancakes for everyone for breakfast. It was nice eating with the family.
• Went for a long morning walk with my guy to the Starbucks thats a little far from our place & bought us a carmel frap.
• I got to cross something off from my bucket list Page ;D that was fast. It was pretty damn fun too. I cant wait to come back!
• Played connect four with my little brother.
• Went up the hill to watch the sunset & made this awesome time lapse video.
• Went shopping for a stripper pole & found one for $130. Time to start saving up! LOL. We decided its an essential for our apartment.
• Visited my boyfriends parents for dinner. They’re so sweeeet! His dad bought me a new back cover for my phone since i shattered mine. I cant wait to take Vietnamese so i can talk to his mom more.
• Played pool for a while at our favorite pool hall
• & then a late night dinner date at Red Lobster
• Czar salad, coke, clam chowder, shrimp & scallop Alfredo pasta & a key lime pie. Yum!

What a great way to end the winter vacation! Im looking forward to tomorrow but I’m a little tense about the business and chaotic scheduling. :x we will see.

2012 bucket list

• Get a tattoo.
• Try a pole dancing class.
• Get straight A’s in a busy semester.
• Go to Vegas.
• Go to New Orleans.
• Go to a traditional Canadian wedding.
• Buy a diamond necklace.
• Hike a lot.
• Pass Physiology & Intro to Psychological Research Methods.
• Get a degree in Communications.

…..so this is what i’m planning on so far but I will most defiantly add/update as the year goes by. I’ll make it into a page to keep it up :D

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